Don’t know who wrote this one!

I bumped into this poem kinda thing on the internet. Since I read it, I am hooked on & it has made it to my soft board in my cubicle.


If you think you are beaten, you are;
If you think you dare not, you don’t;
If you want to win but think you can’t;
It’s almost a cinch you won’t.

If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost;
For out of the world we find
Success begins with a fellow’s will;
It’s all in the state of mind.

Life’s battles don’t always go
To the stronger and faster man,
But sooner or later the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can!!

Introspection

It’s been a year since I completed my bike ride across the country. Lot of things has happened since then. Have understood a lot more about me as an individual, have become more patient, pain still visits me, made new friends, few relationships have become stronger, few have gone weaker…..

Few friends thought I would change, or have changed after the ride. Yes lots has; but as a person inside, I still remain the same. Few think that the ride like mine is impossible & only “cracked nuts” could think about it. Well, yes I am a “cracked nut”! & take that as a compliment. But tell you what, it is not impossible & with careful planning, anyone with guts could do it.

I have not written any more blogs on the ride after the initial few, & haven’t uploaded any pics or any videos. I took a lot of pics, & few videos throughout the ride across 115 days. Made it into few CD’s & the rest in my flash-drive. After I arrived back at home, I took a few days to unpack completely & realized that I had lost the 1st CD containing all the pics & videos, starting from Bangalore till Kolkata. I was angry & disappointed with myself & for being this careless.

I decided that I wouldn’t put any of my pics at all bcos it doesn’t make any sense to upload info only on part of my ride. So that remains that.

I am 30.

“I know it’s been a long time”, unfortunately has been the frequently used starting lines on my blog; bcos I am so regularly irregular. I don’t know why, I get bored of things after the initial excitement.

It has been the same with the Social Networking sites (Orkut & Facebook), my fascination with my 2nd bike (Bullet Thunderbird), my bicycle – for which my heart goes out, rode it to Nandi Hills & back; since then its lying at my place, rotting, the rear tyre with holes thanks to the rats making the most of it; the reading habit I had & never will be able to develop ( cant keep myself to read after few chapters)… there are many more habits like these.

I think (read as know) I am getting old. Very few things hold my excitement or my attention; no I am not suffering from ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder).

I am 30 years old as on the April which passed by. Close friends & family had planned a cake for me & there was (ofcourse) good meal that day! When I was cutting the cake, I didn’t wait for them to sing the Happy Birthday song for me; I just cut the cake as a matter of fact. I could see the “let down” on faces around me, but I was just being me.

There’s some introspection I went through; or probably it was a flash. I suddenly claimed that I did not want to celebrate any more birthdays of mine; or probably the fact that, as every year passes by, the number suddenly seems big. You know what I mean (if you have just crossed 30, I am sure you do); the number of years just seem so (damn) heavy. It sounds OLD!! It sounds like, I have lived half my life (considering I will live up to 6o). GOD, which means I only have another 30 to go.

Then I came up with an idea, like a flash. I think from 30 onwards, we should start counting down on our age. Start from 29, 28, 27, 26……. So on & so forth. I guess it would help us. So, by the time you are actually 60 years, you should celebrate your 30th birthday! Not sure if I am able to explain, but I am sure I would like to be 30 year when I am 60. J What say!!! Now, that’s a nice concept. You could relive your life all over again! You don’t need to be old, you don’t need to feel old.

I want to be happy, cheerful, smiling, make people around me smile, don’t want to behave old. Should feel like (not physically, wishful thinking isn’t it!!!) 30! Now, that’s a concept! Celebrate your birthday backwards from 30. So, see you around when I am 30 again! Now, that’s a birthday I want to celebrate & celebrate BIG! If you still know me then or in touch with me, ask me for a party! Will make you remember every minute of it!